I would like to know if there is any help planning for the future and getting things done. I have had a problem with procrastination since at least 5th grade, probably earlier. My anxiety started much earlier--it began to cause sleeping problems in kindergarten. Plans and expectations seem to cause me so much stress that I avoid them altogether. I read that avoidance might also be a sign of depression in people with AS--any truth to that?
My interest is philosophy, but I know with my issues (procrastination, anxiety, etc.) and the state of academia, I would be setting myself up for failure to attempt graduate school, even if I were a 'typical' person. I spend so much time worrying about/avoiding work (marking, lesson planning, classroom management, household chores) that I hardly have time and energy for my interests, and I'm exhausted at the end of the day.
I have also been diagnosed with depression. I am in counselling, but no one seems to know what to do. Strategies for dealing with procrastination backfire because they set up more expectations for me to fail or for others to disrupt and cause a meltdown (not sure if that's the right word for it). Should I try to find a specialist? Is there something else I can do?
I notice when I am less depressed tackling it all comes more easily, but I burn out at work very quickly and become more depressed. I wish there could just be one kind of thing a day.
Lindsey
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